To trust..

A friend told me that for me to be able to show people that they can trust me, I have to be able to trust them. I am not totally sure that I can do that but, I am trying to open up to some people that mean a lot to me. And trying to meet some new friends because lets face it. I am a pretty lonely person. Everything happens for a reason right? I just knew what the reasons were. It almost seemed like perfect timing that you would show up but we will see.

Sometimes the hardest thing for me is to actually ask for help from others. Well actually it is the HARDEST thing that I could ever do. My dad always taught me that a man that asks for help is a weak man. And I am slowly learning that is not true, but its hard to break old habits. And for me to be able to effectively ask for help I have to be able to trust someone and talk to them about how I actually feel. It is amazing how much trust will affect a person, either through knowing that you have someone you can trust, or believing that you can trust no one.

But know that my friends reading this will always have a friend that they can trust. I will do anything it takes to prove that. I need you guys in my life. You are an amazing group of people, and I know that none of you talk to each other, but I love you all. Thank you guys for being there for me in this last month. I know I haven't been the greatest person and I am sorry for that. Every time I think I am out of the depressing state something always happens and I get sucked back in. Thanks again everyone.