We will do things that we can not explain why we did them. You will do something and instantly regret doing it. Don't regret anything you do because you thought that it was a good idea at the time and you went with your instincts. Everything we do shapes us for the future and will make you into the person that you will eventually be. The question is, when you look on the choices that you are going to make and see how it will affect your life, will you like the person you become? Will you be able to live with yourself and the decisions that you have made? Some days that is the hardest thing that I have to live with. I know that I am only 20 and I have some major regrets in my life because I wasn't thinking when I did them. They weren't good for anyone around me yet I still did them because it is what I thought that I wanted. I know that I said don't regret anything you do but there are many mistakes that I am learning from.
The things that I chose to do have made me into the person that I am today. Depressed, alone, scared to trust, and scared to live. Every once in a while someone will come into your life and there is something about them that instantly makes you trust them. And against my better judgement I still do it. I have had my heart shatter multiple times in the last couple of months and today is no exception. I got told by a good 'friend' of mine that they never want to see me again or talk to me. I have known him for almost 14 years and I lost another friend. I feel like I have no one around me and maybe I should stop placing my trust into people. It always finds a way to get me hurt..
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