I told you....

I told you that I would always be here for you and I always will. Truth is that I am starting to really like you as a person/individual and even though sometimes we don't talk very long I truly like it when we do talk. I know we both have our trust issues because we have been hurt in the past, but you will always be able to trust me. I know that it is easier said than done but, I will not hurt you, I will not abandon you. You will always be my friend and I know that we just met recently but I know that we will be great friends. I am looking forward to really getting to know you and see where our friendship takes us. You are a truly wonderful girl and I think that you are very beautiful. Others have hurt you and I know that it will take time before you will trust me (I know what it is like), but just know that you will always have a friend in me and you will always have someone to talk to. Even if you think you are truly alone. No matter what you do I will always be there because that is how true friends work. I will show you that I am a very trust worthy person and you will be able to always confide in me. Everything that you tell me will always be a secret, no one will ever know anything you tell me.

What you do to me

You always told me that you would be there for me and then you disappeared from my life. You took my heart with you and I don't know what I can do to get it back. When you left I watched you break my heart in two and destroy everything that I had built my life upon. My life came crashing down and in an instant all my old habits came back. The ones that I tried so hard to get rid of, instantly came crashing back down like an avalanche of sorrow. You put me into a deep depression that I almost didn't survive from. I had no one there for me and no one that understood. No one wanted to help me out even though I extend my hand out to everyone else in their time of need. It goes to show you that the trust that you instill into others will be broken and shattered in your face. But now I am getting everything put back together slowly to show you what I am capable of without you and you will never be apart of my life again.

Music

Music has been a big part of my life from the time I was younger. Without the availability of music I found at times that my anger got the best of me. Music is a strange thing that can calm people down just by listening to it and it can drive people to get pumped up. I find myself listening to music almost the entire time I am awake because lately it is the only way to keep my sanity. Since I have no one there for me, music is the only thing that I have. Music many times defines who we are by what we listen to.