Tears

Looking back on all of these memories that I have had is truly bringing tears to my eyes. I want things to go back to how they used to be. I want my old friends back, want to enjoy my life. I just wish that I could be able to call and talk to any one of them again. It is a shitty feeling knowing that there is no one that you can call because most people abandoned you all for the same reason. There are many things in my life that I regret and that is one of them. I know that everything is my fault and it hurts inside knowing that I pushed everyone away all because I didn't want to talk to anyone. Well now I have no one to talk to and would do anything just to be able to talk to someone again. Talk to someone how I used to. That is all gone and it feels like none of it will ever come back....