Why is it that every time I always let everything build up and then when it comes time I let everything out. Usually on the wrong person. Either someone I care about or someone that will have a huge impact on my life. I will bite my tongue for quite awhile and one little thing will push me over the edge. Even right now I get more pissed with every second. I don't know why I let these stupid things affect me. Why I let them build inside. This is a question I will never be able to answer. I used to think that I had a good control over my anger. Until my ex showed me that I did not and helped me with it. Until she turned that same problem against me and blamed everything on it.
Forever I have lived by this saying:
Everyone has the right to be happy. Everyone has the right to be satisfied and calm. No one deserves to be alone.
Sometimes I don't believe this to be true. I always go back to this saying and it helps me calm down. I used this saying to get out of one of the darkest moments in my life. I just hope it helps me like it always has.
I know exactly how you feel here.I too keep everything bottled up and then..suddenly explode on the wrong person....my only escape is poetry whenever I start feeling like this
ReplyDeleteIt is a horrible feeling and I feel terrible every time I do it. Writing is my escape from my anger.
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