Death

Death. Something I have come way too familiar with lately. Death of family, death of friends. Death of love, and death of hatred. Death of emotions, death of selfishness. Death of hope, death of faith. I have been talking with my friends recently about everything that is going on and two friends have really helped me through this tough time. Jessica Renfer and Ross Reed. For those of you who do not know me, my cousin passed away on Tuesday morning and my grandmother Linda Borton was diagnosed with stage 3 Colon Cancer. Time to explain everything.

Death of family, death of friends: Like stated above, my cousin passed away. He got into a fatal car accident. Three months ago my Grandfather Louis Duffey passed away. 4 months ago Brian Wilks passed away.

Death of love, death of hatred: Death of love comes from relationships being broken apart, whether it having been both of mine, or my friends. Death of hatred I have noticed recently that I do not hate those who I thought I did, and that I am starting to be more accepting as a person.

Death of emotions, death of selfishness: Death of emotions mainly comes from my perspective towards certain members of my family, for I simply do not love them. I would not help them if it was possible. Death of selfishness means that I am doing everything I can for friends that I can help.

Death of hope, death of faith: Without hope, there is no faith. For if you have faith in something, you have hope. So one can say that without faith there is no hope.

If you have talked to me in the past couple of days you know that I am taking the death of my cousin very hard. He was only 23 years old, 3 years older than myself. It is hard to imagine a world without him. Maybe that is why I just can't grasp anything right now. Every day this week has been a challenge. Don't know how I will hold on, but I have too right?