Lately I haven't been writing on here. It has been quite some time since I actually wrote anything. Be it a poem, a letter, note, blog. Things that made me once so happy, I just shunned away. But now that I look back, it is almost a good thing that I stopped the writing. It was bringing back memories of times that I wished to not relive. This last 2 months have been interesting to say the least though. I stopped talking to the one girl that I truly loved, and will always love. I had my best friend pass away, and then a week later my grandfather passed away. As I seen my whole family cry, I didn't even shed a tear in front of anyone. I had to be strong fro my family. Which is complete bullshit now that I look back. I should have cried, but it is over. I found out that out of my entire family, I am most like my grandfather. I would do anything for a loved one, before I would help myself. I am completely selfish in that everyone comes before me. Who am I to decide that I deserve something more than another? But on the greater side of things, I found out how much my friends care about me. I was stupid for ever thinking that they would abandon me (certain ones of course). They were always there, and yet I felt like they turned their backs on me. Stupid me I guess.
I miss you Grandpa. You will never be forgotten.
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